^^Smile to keep the frowns away, smilez!^^

“八字的确有两丿”　HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!, i am still waiting for the call.

2012-01-14T23:32:00.005+08:00

I am so damn tired. Physically! Hahaha!

Currently trying out to use my phone to blog... Seems to be going quite well.

Anyway, I am now sitting on my bus home!

AHHHH! Another day of work!~

Glad I met up with my boy in the afternoon.

Though it didn't last long, it feels good to see him.

I miss him so much... His smell, his shoulder, his hands... HIM!

GAHH...

Anyway, I was called back to work cause of the lack of manpower.

It feels good to know that I would be thought of as good assistance.

As in, they bothered to call when they needed help which means I provide help that is recognized and appreciated! :) YAY~

After so many weeks of working, I've once again feel that I've learnt something precious.

Relationship with colleagues.

I dare to say that I don't like some of my colleagues. Hahah.

Just like how you don't like certain behaviors or personality of family members or friends, I find certain feelings I derived from them hard to accept.

But this isn't the lesson I've learnt.

Instead, it is the fact that every organization or group that work together must accept each and everyone's personality and deal with it.

Yeah, I know how this person acts and how he or she may be like at times so, I accept it and try to understand. HENCE, not holding grudges!

Mmhmm! No matter how angst or upset OR IRRITATED you may be, put up with it and treat the other with equal amount of respect like any other human being.

However, it would really work out if everyone in the restaurant treats each other sincerely, with respect and look out for each other. Cause right now, I don't feel that level of teamwork yet and I doubt it'll come easy within a year.
HOW I WISH WE CAN ALL GO OUT ON ONE OF THE CNY HOLS WHEN THE SHOP IS CLOSED! :/ But, i guess it won't happen...

Sometimes i am actually confused towards kindness towards me.
True from the heart or just to make me feel good. heh.
Some i can tell, some I can't. It's a mystery. Tell me.

Anyway, it's been decided, I am going to bring my family there next Saturday..
SHHH...!! HEEHEE~

Truthfully to say, some days I feel like "why the hell am i here." when i screw up big time or when I feel those feelings i dislike. But on some other days I feel that strong bond within this small family. This two opposites make it hard to decide when i should stop working.. ARGH.
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By the way.. i am using my computer now.
Cause it turns out that there's some error with the blogger via phone.
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Ohya, i want to thank creator so much for sparing time to listen to my prayer. HAHA.
It freaking came true~! So happy!! :D
I prayed that we'd have a full house today and yeah, FULL HOUSE OHYEAHHH~!!
THANK YOU CREATOR! :D
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i am looking forward to class chalet and spending time with my family (mmhmm, that includes you boy! if you ever read this line. :O)

anyway... GYU-KAKU GOGOGO! :D

A friend we'll all miss undoubtedly...

2012-01-05T10:47:00.003+08:00

5th of January... Time really slips past before you know it.
I recall my emotions and thoughts from last year.
They weren't that ambitious and I know I was not serious then.
BUT NOW, I am.

After struggling so desperately for Olevels (only D:), I realise what I lack and what I missed out throughout my secondary school life though I would never regret all the fun I've had.
At the end of the day, going to school IS IN FACT, going to school!
It's about studies ultimately which I don't favour.
It's because I never really accepted this fate and my constant rejection led to such an unsteady start with a rough end... (i presume)

One of my new year wishes would be to put in serious effort for my future studies and at the same time, I hope we could all gain that self-confidence we need.
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In about 11hours time, my good friend dxy would be on a plane towards UK.
She told me yesternight about her mixture of emotions and I shared with her my excitedness and nervousness for her.
A new environment, a new identity and importantly, a new start.
Woah.
Although I ain't feeling THAT emotional about her leave, I will definitely miss her.
4years aint a long time but 2years is.
HAHAHA. I've known dxy for 4years already but at times, she makes me wonder if I really know her. Before I can even figure this out, she's heading over to UK for 2years.
It was when I read through her card yesternight that I recall what we went through together in the past.
I am surely going to miss the times we discussed about certain issues(slight gossiping here and there), the times we would go crazy and high at Karaoke sessions(BECAUSE OF YOU~~) and the good old times of each other's company.
AW MAN, I AM GOING TO MISS HER ALOAD!! AHH!
BUT... I believe time will fly fast like it always does and she'll be back before we can even say PEANUTBUTTER AND JAM SANDWICHES WITH LETTUCE, PICKLES AND CUCUMBERS!

Be safe, girl.
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I will be brave,
I will not let anything
Take Away
what's standing infront of me.
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this.

Irrashiaimase Konichiwa~ :O

2011-12-10T11:19:00.004+08:00

I didn't realise I was spending way too much time at work until recently.
Ever since I found my new stable part time job at Gyu-Kaku, I have been working there almost every other day from 11am to 1030pm, excluding the time i wake up which is 8am.

My mother thought I had work today and woke up at 7am to make brunch for me. HOHO~
But unfortunately... *drum roll*... today's my day off.

I wonder how the shop is doing now? They are about to open in around 5minutes time. Hmm..

Sincerely, I love my work at Gyu-Kaku. I work there not because of the money.
Well, I may sound fake to you but I would still continue working there even if they decide to pay 2dollars lesser an hour.
I feel that at this restaurant, all the workers are like one BIG family~ :)
We work side by side, providing our customers with the best service we can deliver.
They pay so much not only for the food but also the service.
We, people who belong to the restaurant family, are the front liners who face the consumers of our company.
Allowing the customers to feel welcomed and comfortable is our duty and when they return to our restaurant for meals, it means that we have succeeded in benefiting our company.

Other than that, working at Gyu-Kaku, beside Sam and Benjamin (experienced people in F&B) has made me understand the spirit of F&B and gained useful experiences in handling food and also, the customers. These experience appealed more to me than the first job I had. LOL.

Meanwhile, I have also earned myself the knowledge of how different the studying realm and working society is. Studying is tiring but working brings the word tired to a whole new level.
I simply can't imagine myself working 6days a week more than 12 hours a day for the rest of my life. Just working for 2 to 3 weeks there has already gotten me some eyebags, crazy hair and depleting energy levels. HAHA!
Nonetheless, I love my work there. :D

Everytime i make a mistake or embarrass myself, I tend to feel rather disappointed because I made known to myself the general knowledge i lacked! GRR!
Plus the fact that my efficiency is rather low and I complete tasks given to me at a slow rate, makes the people working around me agitated. HAHAHA, I AM trying my best to improve though and my goal for the rest of my time here in Gyu-Kaku is to make everyone's physically tiring day at work a lot more cheerful and enjoyable :D (without getting us all nagged at or scolded~)

GYU-KAKU ANCHORPOINT GOGOGO!!! :]
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I swear that I am going to treat my family at Gyu-Kaku in January. muahaha.

Hardworking people are beautiful~ Are you one of them?

2011-11-22T21:30:00.005+08:00

Busy week for many these few days!
I completed my very first part time job on Sunday! WHOOTS!
And for yesterday + today + tomorrow, I decided to participate in TPRAWKS! (background cheering)
Though it's been a week plus since the end of Os, it feels like MONTHS to me~ HAHAHA!
The after effects of Olevels... i guess?
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work.

赚钱难，花钱超容易!

I took up the agency offer from xinyue along with president and we entered the crazy and messy workplace with zeal and nervousness.
The uniform check was strict and I was sent back into the toilet a few times! (ARGH!)
The uniform collection area was SO COOL! It reminded me so much of the movie "Monster Inc" HAHAHA! Our uniforms were cool too, i guess :)

Shall skip everything and go straight to the actual hardwork!

I was assigned to do the Canupus (Is this how you spell it?! :O)
What we basically have to do is enter the kitchen, collect a long dish with cute, small snacks, exit the kitchen, serve the guests, enter the kitchen, send the dirty dishes to the cleaning corner, return to your chef and the whole cycle REPEATS over and over!
i swear i entered and exited more than 30 times!!
Okay, not sure how many but, seriously, no joke, MANY TILL I CANNOT COUNT!
Anyway, the kitchen was filled with cheeky chefs that were irritating... LOL!
Let me attempt narrating the ball room scene.

"Everywhere was dark and smelt like a mixture of wine, beer and perfume except for the kitchen. I was threading from one end of the football sized ballroom to the other amongst the seemingly endless walls that engulfed me, being extra careful not to hit into any guests or cause any trouble for myself by spilling the food. It was difficult to see any of their faces due to mine and their height. It was exceptionally challenging to speak up because of the booming music. Before I knew it, my arms longed for a break so much that they showed me overt unhappiness. I felt elated and jubilant about smiling and serving and I would definitely do it again some time without a doubt. :)"

Alas, we received our pay at the end of the day and rushed for our free ride home.
Unfortunately, we didn't quite make it so.. we had to wait for the 1:30 am ride for an hour.
I tried so hard to stay awake but I did doze off along the way... *heehee*
My beloved shoes loved me so much they bit me and painted passion red on the sides of my feet.
WHEE~ Work was fun. HAHA. But, definitely tiring!
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TPRAWKS DAY 2 > Day 1.

The most interesting thing about Day 1 was the visit to the School of Design!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
SUPER TEMPTING! :O
One word. Professional.
Their study environment was like an actual office! Everyone sorta have their own space to produce brilliant designs of all sorts! GAHHHHH!
The atmosphere was amazing.
Regardless of apparel design, art work or media, ALL OF THEM BLEW MY MIND AWAY! WOAH!
I want to be able to feel proud of my work for once!! :)
ohya and erm.. when i was walking through, i actually wished i had a boyfriend from design. HEH, in my dreams!

Moving on... DAY 2!
Time passed so much faster compared to yesterday!
I had SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun today!
It started off with a visit to the School of Engineering.
Mind = blown. again.
The students are so damn talented. gah..!
Shall not reveal the awesome products I saw. Go see for yourself~

Lunch was fantastic~ BK rodeo wings rawk!
Then, we had the hip-hop lesson~ Learnt a new choreo~
WHEE~ The lessons we took last time came in handy~ At least we know how to do the stretching. had fun~
Then, we moved on to games!~
WHOOTS! My team pwned the game! *Faints* so much teamwork~ hahaha!
Afterthat, we went for... *drumroll* DRAGON BOATING! Hell yeah!
The feeling is seriously addictive.
The wind against your face, people shouting the timing all around you and your paddle pushing against the waters!
BUT, we got splashed all over by the in-charge dudes! :(
They purposely walk past you and use their beakers to scoop water and pour it all over you.
AHHHHHH! T_T
I smelt like reservoir water!
Tea break rawked too~ Brownie!~ *heavenly look*

OMG! DO YOU KNOW!! CELL AND I DRANK... *drumroll* JAM WATER!! HAHAHAHHA! no joke.

anyway, it ended with the mass dance.
not bad, it is fun only when your partner wants to make it fun with you. haha!
though it was pretty awkward and i wished you were there...

ANYWAY, tomorrow is the visit to HSS! WHOOTS! FINALLLLLLLLLLLLY!
I cant wait~
Psychology~~~~~~~~~~~ HERE I COME~ WHEEE!

Ohya.
I dont understand why some people like to act bitchy and bimbotic o.o
Is it really how they are? I believe there's always good in a person..
What's with wearing make up?!
And yeah, I fiddle with my phone but when it's time to cheer, I scream like some ass.
I may not do a good job but I contribute.
sincerely, if we could change groups, i would. LOL.
If becoming 17 means such attitude, I'd rather not.
Even the 15 year olds are doing a great job!
Do yall even understand what T.E.A.M. means...?

And whats with the random explosion of f-words?!
You're girls... :\ and screaming such crude words at trivial matter just brings down the power and impact of this word!
If your mother died and you shouted that, nobody would mind.
If you were trapped under debri and tore off your arms and legs to stay alive while shouting that continuously, I would shout it with you.
But getting a forfeit after a mini game / getting splashed by reservoir water and exclaiming the f-word just seems so... unnecessary and harsh to the ears.
Does anyone agree with me...? :\

Yeah lar, we may be a bunch of lame teammates but you have no rights to complain about your team because you contribute to what we are.
While you were worrying about sweating, we were bruising in our throats and having the time of our lives playing without you. HAH.
Yall look like people with big dreams but oh well, you have a long way to go. :O

And yeah, I am a wallflower but i go with the flow, I give my best when needed. It may not be the best but i contribute and make the best out of my situation.
hmm, now to think of it, i am quite crappy. no wonder everyone daos me. LOL.
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You have your space and I have mine
but at the end of the day, let's share one and feel fine.
no drifting, no lifting and no kidding,
i want this to be the best thing.
yeah. no joke. :D
loveya! <3

Am i who i think i am or what you think i am?
cause who i think i am ain't what you think i am.
i just want to be who i am but who exactly am i?

TO-DO-LIST (after Olevels)

2011-11-10T20:00:00.004+08:00

1. spend time with my boyboy~!
2. part time with Cell :P (i bet we'll end up in macs...)
3. buy a new pair of sneakers~
4. sleep over at so many people's house!
5. watch at least 5 movies before school starts again
6. start preparing gifts for people i care for
7. diet with my bro. oh yeah.
8. laugh crazily with the YFC
9. draw. Draw. DRAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!
10. set up our own youtube channel with my bro.

11. cut hair at a professional place for once!! Ugh!!

12. Watch that movie with Dxy!

13. Understand how it feels like to poke your eyeball.

14. PIERCE EAR WITH CELL!!

他的情绪就像阴晴不定的天气，时好时坏......

2011-11-10T18:52:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was quite a torture.. NO JOKE!
I had a weird fever, a sore throat and my whole body ached like never before!!
It wasn't something i expected and of course, it was scaryyyyyyyyyyy!

Tried my best to tolerate the sickness that was spreading through my vessels every second but ended up lying on the cold, hard floor at 9:30pm and had a difficult time getting up.
Breathing rate was low and inhalation came in gasps after gasps.
Before long, I actually couldn't take it any longer so I collasped around 10 in my bedroom.
BUT, it was mental and physical torture.
I knew I musn't switch on the fan so I laid there under my blanket in the dark.
Then i felt it... That sore feeling in the joints of my legs. ARGH.
Simply thinking of that pain creeps me out...
I tried to control myself but soon realised i was moving my legs in hope to get rid of that aching feeling.
Next thing I knew, I was sobbing pathetically with my warm teardrops smeared all over my face as I tossed and turn constantly.

I fell asleep shortly after (idk when) and woke up again at 12 plus breathing hard.
For a period of 4hours, between 12plus and 4plus, I woke up more than a couple of times.
I have no idea why but I couldn't differentiate between waking and dreaming...
Sounds like Midsummer Night's Dream but... nah~
COMING BACK, I keep remembering this formula. It kept ringing in my brains.
something equating to zero.. I cant recall. Everytime i wake up I will remind myself of this formula. Don't ask me why, I JUST DONT KNOW!
Now to think of it, it's extremely scary...!
The very last dream before I wake up for school at 5 was crazy too.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I dreamt that I was taking my HCL Olevels and somehow, one of the examiner saw me as a thorn in her eyes. She kept picking on me, scolding.. no, more like mocking me for no reason!
How I wish she tripped over a random wire on the floor and hit her head on the table.
Whoopsie~
Anyway, when we flipped the paper open, it was a super difficult higher level science question.
"What the heck!?" I thought... "Isn't it suppose to be a language paper?!"
And there, I woke up.
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I shall save the effort of telling you about my papers this morning.
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I've got SIX numbers today~ HAHAHA
Cell and I combed the entire Tampines mall and T1 for part time jobs. HAHAH!
Madness.
Defintely madness + partial failure.
:D
Well of course there were nice AND nasty shop assistants.

Nice ones like those at Dorothy P. :)
Nasty ones like the one at Sfield that went BROM BROM BROM and the one at Pmod who was totally BLEH.
(descriptions credited to CELL)

rejection after rejection... GAHHHHHHHHHH!
Trying our luck after Olevels again!!
Which lucky shop is going to get ahemthistwolovelyladiesahem?

CANT WAIT TILL AFTER Os! 3more papers~ :D
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after all those, I am still sick.
Hope I recover soon soon soon~ :)

opposite me...

2011-10-29T21:48:00.003+08:00

warning. emo content. skip because i have your interest at heart.

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amath is a f B.I.T.C.H.

wait... we can also say amath BITCH. (burn innocent teenagers crying (in) hell)

normally I would be here chirping to you how happy my day was but not today...

I don't want to say much.

I don't feel like speaking much.

screwed family. screwed academics. what am i living for.

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anyway, i guess i am the only one feeling this way at this exact moment.

ignore me please.

thanks.

i'll be fine... once i fall asleep.

so miserable i want to feel pain instead...heh.

blurring the lines between what's right and what's wrong...

2011-10-26T15:20:00.003+08:00

Weather check : Droplets of rain with a tinge of sunlight.

Temperature check : Cozy and just nice~

Time check : 3:31 pm

Mood check : bored but optimistic

The clouds that are drifting past look SO inviting. :O

How i wish i can sit on one and drift to... lalaland? haha!

as you can see, i am totally distracted. GAH!

Finished emath paper and my supposed break but i just can't bring myself to sit back and start with lit...

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Break was great~ :)

I did abit of sketching while listening to music and singing at the same time..

Missed that feeling... It's been quite a while since i settled down and drew stuff.

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I guess i can't bring myself to start another subject revision mainly because i am disturbed.

By what?

some irresponsible teachers. (maybe not that drastic but oh well, might as well get to a BIG topic)

heh.

I do admit that in our lives, we'll meet teachers that really give their best for their students - willing to sacrifice their free time to help us understand certain topics or concepts that we cant grasp, buying us candies to cheer us up and gifts to reward us for our hard work and diligence..

They show us through their every action their passion in their career - teaching!

Regardless of how hopeless it may seem, these brilliant teachers are like the twig at the side of the cliff when you grab on to survive in the world of education.

their dedication and passion spur us on to never give up and fight the 'battle' alongside with them!

Such teachers, undoubtedly, paints a wideeeeeeeeee smile on our faces~

however

inevitably, we do face certain acts some teachers do that just deters us from wanting to even pick up the book.

it is true that we tend to remember the negative and ugly side of people we don't have a good impression of rather than the pleasant and kind other half they present.

...

sometimes, it makes me feel as if adults and children are no different.

i thought being an adult was a totally different thing.

more authority, more maturity etc but sometimes i can't bring myself to understand their actions...

furthermore, they are 'teachers' for crying out loud...

aren't they suppose to set the examples for us?

don't they know that when dealing with a large group of students, certain words and actions are kinda hurting?

i dont know...

at moments, i feel that certain teachers are so occupied in their own world.

[perhaps struggling to survive dealing with their own responsibilities in the education field or dealing with their own personal life... who knows. ]

that they just neglect the fact that students are humans with emotions too.

especially at this critical period of time...

maybe we should try to understand your side of the story?

-its the holidays and you're feeling the holiday mood.

-we are difficult to teach

-you feel that you've done enough.

-you feel that we've been slacking too much and know it's too late to try to work hard so..

-or you have your own personal reasons we wont ever know thereby leading us to infer the above.

i know that we are indeed in need of thee help from you but to say that.. isn't it just so.. heartless..? i dont know, ugh.

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this is one of those times when you would oh-so-very-much wish you were still in Primary School. haha!

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i guess i'll just leave this computer as i return to that cold and lonely seat by the piano and start mugging lit..

hold on, winnie... you're doing this not for the sake of others but for yourself.

learn and live.

overcome and strive.

hungry must eat.

A drop in the ocean,

a change in the weather,

i was praying that you and me

might end up together~

My heart palpitates so wildly everytime I think about tomorrow~

2011-10-23T14:02:00.003+08:00

WHOOPS! I am so dang lazy.
As you compare the dates of this blog post and the one before it, you will notice the hugeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee date gap. (is there even such a word?)
SO SORRY~
I guess I havent really touched this computer for quite a while...
Well, I PROMISE that after the Olevels, I will DEFINITELY come back to blogging! :P
Considering the fact that I MIGHT have had some followers reading my blogs and currently, since my blog is so dead, I might... no, I bet i have lost them.. :(
come back... HAHHAA.
I shall let my actions speak for thy words!
After Os I shall get back on track and fill this dead place with some random stuff and perhaps get cell to change the blogskin or something... :P
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Anyway, tomorrow is the start of my Olevels.. Yeah, it is an important examination for all Secondary 4 students in Singapore. :O For a total 4 hours (more or less) we'd all be sitting in a freezing hall scribbling wildly with our trusty pens~
Well, please please PLEASE remember to bring your jackets with you! We don't want any bad cold or flu or fever virus!!

Just a few words to all those taking their Os tomo...

1. EAT well! Reward your hardwork with breakfast, lunch and dinner!!
2. SLEEP well! Yes, don't damage or tire your poor mind and body by working late into the night!
3.SHIT well! No joke! The nutrients go in, the bad stuff must come out! XP
4. BELIEVE in yourself, your teachers and your mind! Dont worry so much, just do what you can and be satisfied with the results! :) Answer with your heart and no regrets afterthat! :D

If your teacher says you can do it, you will.
If your teacher says you cant, prove it to him/her that you can.
If your teacher never said anything to you, bug him/her till they say something... JOKING! heh.

Take a deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep breath yo!
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There's so many things we put on hold for this examination, dont waste your life, take it seriously~ :D It concerns yours and whole load of other people's future!
Hell yeah it does!
Imagine if you had the potential and perhaps didnt want to do your best, you wont make it into the job that you could have gotten into to help save thousands of lives or contribute your greatness into the society! :O IMAGINE THAT!
Well, teachnically we won't know what is in store for us BUT, make the best out of everything you do and you will NOT regret it. :D
LALALA~
I feel like I am crapping much here. Whoops~

Simply, I want to wish you good luck and if i had some, I'd rub a little of mine onto you so you'd have some too! WE SHALL CONQUER THIS... TOGETHER!!!!!!!! Xeap!

Let's go!

HAPPY! YAY! WHEE! BLOOOOOOOP! JOKES! LAUGHTER! SMILES! STARS! SUN! BALLOONS! WISHES! GOLD! ... (?!) LOYALTY! LIFE! MEOW! BICYCLE! CHOCOLATES! SWEETS! CHILLI CRAB! RAMEN! CAKES! PASTRY! PILLOWS! FIBBY! RED! BLUE! PINK! COMPUTER! GAME! FUN! CHALET! GAMES! TELEVISION! MUSIC! PIANO! FLUTE! PHONE! TOWER DEFENCE PAID VERSION! (this is my bro's suggestion) END OF Os SOON SOON SOON! SCOTTS! LALALA! PANDA! PENGUIN! BEAR! MOVIES! GOLDEN RETRIEVER! YANGYANG! Q-MO! BEBE! KEYS! JUBILANT! JOY! INSANE! WILDNESS! WWRAWKS RIGHT?
Yes, a list of happy things really liven up the mood! :P

Can't stop tearing... T_T

2011-08-14T19:55:00.003+08:00

"They will just take moeny out from your medisave to buy this enhancer thingy!"

There went me trying very hard to explain calmly to my father what my mother was actually telling him.

Sigh... Sitting in a car with my mama and papa fighting makes me want to cry my heart out...
Sometimes I wonder why can't they just each take a step back and be understanding towards each other...
It really depresses me when they talk about death, especially in this case where this medical insurance of some wort is involved...
Truthfully, i am scared.
I have no idea why my father has become so uptight about his cash to a point he shakes his head everytime we request for something that needs money, even before we can even explain what it's about...
Maybe I am still a clueless child who doesn't know the adult world but all these insurance and what not are just so confusing that even my father refuses and objects violently from believing.
Why must every meal now be like a battle field? Okay, maybe not that exaggerating... But I feel like we're just staring at each other and tolerating all the nonsense that conjures up...

1. I don't want to die so early... I am scared of death all of a sudden... My mama said that when you're old, there's no way to escape the hospital bed all your life... I worry how I will cope when any of my family lies on that sickening bed... What would i do...

2. I don't want to be an adult... Why is the world so complicated? :( I am scared... I don't want to fight with my future husband about all these craziness! Can I stay a child? I don't want to be exposed to SO much decision and uncertainties.. (now i know how to answer my prelim2 oral)

3. Am I trying to escape from responsibility if I say point 1 and 2? Am I selfish if I feel that way...? What should I be feeling?

Sigh... This is... life...?

It's one of those rare times when you'll see this bear cheerful the whole day~

2011-08-01T22:50:00.003+08:00

Never imagined I could be grinning to myself for an entire day~

I think I did a good job during PE today! Felt great to hear praises from fellow classmates~
But at the same time kinda embarrassed that there's actually people cheering for me... :O

Glad that today's Class celebrations was quite succesful~ Though everyone was tired and drained from the long day, I am sure we all enjoyed the games and food~

Credits to:

Comm- Estee, Xinyue, Guo Yue, MeiXin and not forgetting Dena
Mrs Lim - for being with us~
Mrs Cheng and Mr Lee - for showing up~
Aileen - Drinks
Roch - cups
Keith - Cake
Zhaoyan - fruit salad
Kelly - ball
Class fund - various sponsoring.
yanling - helping suring explanation of games~
whole class - for being cooperative and enjoying yourselves~

(anyone I missed out?)

Ohh, Aldon's video rawks! :D had a great time laughing too!
Xinyue, Xinyu, Zhaoyan and Huangxue's GREAT job in doing the class book thingy!
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I feel super happy when a whole group of us walked out of the school together~ :D so united!
Never want to forget this feeling~ Enjoy witnessing the entire class smiling and laughing! There's always this tinge of warmth and comfort thee class gives me... Want to thank everyone for making up 3/4BN! without anyone of you, the class would've been totally different! :D

Whee~

CHEERS~ this post is totally dedicated to 4BN 2011! :D

Creator played me

2011-07-13T21:52:00.003+08:00

At times, I feel as if I am one of the victims of depression.
Many little gestures or incidents upset me.
Maybe it's all just my fault for thinking too much, I've always thought.

Today, I felt inexistent.
I've felt it many times before but due to a trigger event, I've once again experienced this sudden undesirable emptiness within.

Have you ever waved happily to a teacher and gotten a cold or no response?
I don't think we were that unfamiliar before.
Unfamiliar to the extent that you've seen me yet choose to ignore me.
It's quite depressing as if I mean nothing in your life and waving back or a simple smile would be a waste of time; as if your muscles were never meant for such useless and unworth acts.
Perhaps it was because you were tired or busy but just to let you know, it hurt my heart.
HAHA. Yeah, my puny, insignificant heart.
I'd NEVER thought adults in your field would be capable of such acts, at least not till today.

Before I knew it, the thoughts just invaded my mind.
If I really sat down to think of it, I just feel like an insignificant being in this world.
Are humans really this insincere?
I don't really have more than 2 or 3 juniors who wouldn't mind sitting with a boring person like me for lunch. At least not that I'd know of.
And I doubt less than the number before would enjoy doing the latter.
Even lesser or none for seniors I guess...
Finally, it all boils down to me and my pathetic life. Yeap.

Well, at least I still have my close friends, my bestie and my boyfriend to rely on.
I don't know what I'd do without them. seiously.
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ICT TEST.
"exciting" according to Asstea. Holy mama.
It was practically an unexpected frustrating test.
It has shown and proven (I sound mathematic-ish) that I am a close-to-totally IT noob.
HAHA! No joke.
They claimed it would be a simple 5 question test.
Who'd knew there'd be so many parts to every question.
:O really, I was close to tears from laughter/agony... I cant really tell.
The worst part is... today was just the exercise and next week's the real deal.
Help.
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Creator played me today. But I guess it must be lonely to be the only one who's holy...

I want to be able to pass on the same light that you shone onto me...~

2011-07-07T21:25:00.005+08:00

Yo! It has been a terribly long time since I've blogged. I would like to sincerely apologise for my negligence. Whoops, sorry dudes... and dudettes!
Actually I guess mainly cause of the following:
1. new Iphone white (which i haven't figure out what to name)
2. my weekends are taken (volunteer work and dance lessons)
3. busy school week
4. inability to find time to caress my computer
5. study study study
6. revise revise revise

all these plus of course finding time for my penguin! :O

and yes, i am a busy girl. HAHA!
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I am starting to feel vex over my low level of vocabulary usage. Hence everytime I come face to face with a word I think I am able to change, I search my handy IPhone dictionary app for synonyms~ MUAHAHA! I will attempt describing my surroundings and people's actions too! So I definitely hope this will raise my standard/command of English by a fair bit. GOOD LUCK TO ME!
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I just finished typing out my testimonial and making the final touch ups! WHEE~ I hope the ending paragraph works out well! :O It kind of feels good when you praise yourself or when you receive positive feedbacks.
From this, I conclude that everyone needs a certain amount of affirmation every single day.

Go to the mirror this instance. Look into the eye of the person you see in the mirror.
Give a wide grin and say out loud "You rawk dude!"

This is no joke! It is serious business! AND it works! :D The smiling is a crucial part, dont forget it!
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There is so many things I want to do at this point of time :D HAHA. But I believe that I can only fulfill these wants after my big Os. o_o ARGH.
SO many that i can only remember a few though..
Like...

I want to get a long straight wallet so that my notes are straight and beautiful.
I want a type writer.
I want to improve on ALL my subjects. For this, time must indeed slow to a crawl.
I want to thank and live up to the expectations of all my teachers.
I want to let my family know how much I love them.
I want to affirm my friends how much they mean to me.
I want to write a random story on this laptop.
I want to dream about flying again.
I want to watch Transformers, Cars 2 and Harry Potter movies.
I want to go shopping with CELL.
I want to achieve great ambitions in the future.
I want to live my dreams (though they arent any clearer to me at this point in time)
I want to eat the nice delicacies around Singapore.
I want to celebrate National Day with ALL Singaporeans on 9th August.
I want to sing K with my classmates.
I want to spend time with my boyfriend~ :D
I want to break free! (whoops, song lyrics)
I want to get recognition
I want to feel and experience.
I want to spend a day without a single worry.
I want to believe in my abilities.
I want to smile and laugh with my friends 24/7. HAHA
I want to scream to the world "I've completed Os!"
I want to just be myself~!
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Everytime i see your face, my heart takes off on a high speed chase~
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Don't be scared, it's only love, that we're falling in...~

Mission for life~

2011-06-12T14:02:00.002+08:00

Hoho, ever since I took up dance lessons with Cell, I think my weekends have been double the eventfulness and fun than before! HAHA! Especially plus the volunteer work on Saturdays! Well, you might think that I am not going to cope with my studies but I am so going to concentrate and study hard during weekdays! ARGH! so that I make up for my activities on weekends, I promise.
LALALA~

So looking forward to today's dance lesson! I hope we learn cool cool moves~ hehe~
Also looking forward to the next meeting with my R1 group members!
Not forgetting the time when I see my penguin lar. :D *happy~
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Hmm, I am also here to compliment my school's SSP programme! muahaha!
Although I feel like I am so going to gain weight by eating so much a day, I think the programme is so beneficial. We do our best in 90 minutes and get rewarded with different types of food afterthat :D 4 90minutes and 3 breaks! What more can we ask for~ muahaha!
Follow me on twitter to see the yummy pictures~ HAHA!
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Hmm, lastly, the CMS people are taking their Olevels in this period of time so I wish them all the best! A1 hor!
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*jump jump jump~ 8years later~

*poke poke! smiles like a retard~

2011-05-29T09:22:00.002+08:00

An official 1hour waiting time for a bus beats all records! Muahaha!
Anyone with a better timing? =]
Well, I was waiting for bus yesterday and it just showed be 2 things from such a simple act of waiting for a bus.
1. SBS needs more improvement. (hey, they're great already, providing such services.)
2. The ugly side of humans.

Somehow, I guess because of the food expo, there was aload of people on bus 12. It's just like when you try to squeeze an extra chocolate into a box that only holds 10. It won't make it in no matter how small it is unless it becomes liquid of gaseous, whih is highly impossible. In that 1 hour, three buses came. The first two were single-decks. I managed to get on the third one which was a double-decker. Phew. Pretty lucky though i'm not in a rush. Perhaps others have waited even longer than me. I was thinking maybe SBS should stay relevant to the events happening around Singapore. Like for this case, since there is a food expo, I suggest that they send more buses that head for the expo. MAYBE, they've already done so in preparation for such incidents but evidence prove that the efforts were not enough. Hmm, xeap, so... a new strategy? =]
BUT I must say that the services they provide is commendable. The bus master would greet sleepy passengers like me in the morning and that would make me feel happy throughout the day!

The ugly side of humans. Xeap. Selfish and uncaring creatures that exists as upperclass animals only. Every time the bus arrives at the traffic light around 200m away, people would start crowding at that particular spot where the bus would come to a stop. Okay, this is nothing out of the ordinary for Singaporeans. When the bus doors open, it becomes a mad chaos of who can squeeze themselves upon the bus. Nobody even bothers to check for elderly or needy who need the ride more urgently. The scene was so dramatic I think that there were definitely many unhappy passengers and the injured aboard. Tsk tsk. I lost the battle because I didn't even get a chance to stand a few cm away from the doors. HAHA. But, I know I was nudged here and there and it ain't a good feeling. Nonetheless, I'M FINEE! HOHO. Seriously, we can all learn from Japan. I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. From this experience, I can totally imagine a scene when the world becomes terribly flooded and there's only one boat. Everyone would be fighting and going mad to get on the boat, not caring about those who really cannot swim. SO many deaths, so much disappointment... Instead, why not just chain youself up, form layers grabbing the sides of the boat while letting the elder people sit onboard. Then maybe we could take turns to sit onboard too. Although it may not be the best idea but at least things are in order and we could all think of a better idea together!
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LALALA, a bear likes a penguin and treats the penguin like honey~ yay~
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one day when the sky is falling, I'll be standing right next to you, right next to you~
nothing will ever come between us, cause i'll be standing right next to you, right next to you~
stand by my side, side, side, stand by my side~

I cussed at the phone and threw it before I could even think...

2011-04-19T22:36:00.003+08:00

Sad.
I don't want to hear the same sorry but I think i'm asking too much.
fish.
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I've made up my mind not to use com from tomorrow till after Prelims.
I wanted to use it for the final time just now.
My brother was so darn determined that he won't let me use the com.
My mum, being unable to handle the situation, like always, claimed that neither of us will get to use it if nobody decides to let the other.
Fine.
Let him use lo.
Everytime it's me letting him win. I have no idea why.
Who cares anyway.
All I need now is my textbooks, my worksheets, my wonderful homework pile plus the assessments and revisions to accompany me.
Yeap.
Not lonely at all.
Perfectly fine, thank you.
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You can't do anything and I bet you won't.I'm sad. Can you tell?

Keep the drug (com) away from my mum and my bro! LOL

wobble wobble... POINTS... I SEE THE LIGHT!

2011-04-18T21:06:00.002+08:00

Sad things I will share with you, BUT, HAPPY THINGS DEFINITELY MUST SHARE TOO!

In secondary school, the only thing I can ever get full marks for and get straight As for is NAPFA, physical fitness Assessment. MUAHAHA.
I feel proud of myself and I'm thankful for the body given by my parents, the support from all my friends and lastly, the wonderful unexpected results my body blessed me with. Bleh.

(in order of test)
Sit-ups - 41
Standing Broad jump - erm i forgot around 180
Sit and Reach - 51
Inclined Pull-ups - 27
Shuttle-run - 11.2

I thank the creator too.
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Tomorrow is the SYF judging for CO and Guzheng, I wish all of them best of luck.
Enjoy the music you make and just let loose, HAVE FUN!
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Ohya, I had forgotten to tell you about my mishap on Saturday.
It apparently rained sumos, I attempted to run. Took my first step and... I...
Slipped and slided. Ouch.
Scrapped my knuckles and ankle area. Teehee.
I'm finee though, don't worry!=O

BLEH.
I

♥

you

Somebody please whack me... Whack me hard so that I can wake up...

2011-04-12T19:39:00.002+08:00

At times like this, I can't find any word that can express what I'm feeling. Damn.

Today was... difficult.
Shall start from the least to the most bothering thought.
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I lack exercise.
Yes.
After a simple 5station training yesterday, my stomach muscles ache like.. Creator knows how pain. A random cough, a gentle laugh and a soft push sends billions of dinosaurs biting at the affected area around my hips. No joke.
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I went for my president's judging today.
let's just say it was unexpected.
Found myself feeling SUPER inhumanly nervous when she stood at the end of the room.
I don't know much about wushu. I practically don't know anything at all.
I guess I don't really have any rights to say anything too.
I felt that leaving her alone would be the best...
I hate myself for not knowing what to say, not knowing what to do.
Fish.
I felt so freaking bad when I stood at the side witnessing her sudden change in look and stuff.
The results were just too unexpected even for her I guess.

The feeling of helplessness sucks.
I was still stun when she left the hall.
Chased after her, didn't really know where she went then I heard that she was upstairs.
Saw her busy. Could tell how she was actually feeling. Actually I can't. I'm not her.
I wanted to call out to her and hug her and stuff but I thought what if i did that, would she feel worse? I really didn't know what to do.

I felt so lost. There stood my friend, hiding all her emotions behind that strong looking face of hers and I just didn't know what to do. How to make it better.
The overwhelming feeling forced tears out.
Never in my life had I feel so strong for results. Results that were not even mine to begin with.

I hate myself.
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There I was feeling super overwhelmed and just wanting to let everything out.
For the first time, I spent an entire 12 ride awake, holding in.
Blinking hard looking straight into the fluffy clouds in the sky, wishing for...
After sending a text to president, i stun at my seat, not knowing if what i did was right.
Looked down, see screensaver, felt like my efforts of looking at sky was almost wasted.

I wanted to question everything. Why was the world created?
So many things flashed through my mind, so many thoughts just flood in, taking over the initial occupant.
You know, I still believe and I don't want to let this go...
How to be understanding when I don't bloodily understand any freaking thing.
That's it. Shall not write anymore things about this on my blog. Such things keep inside my heart can liao....... Too painful to write out and tear all over again.
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Amongst all these, I'm still telling myself there are people worst off than me.
I can't believe myself o_o'''

Final 12 minutes. I had fun. YAY

2011-04-05T20:56:00.003+08:00

Today then I realize the pain of being a secondary 4. -__________-

Thank you people for cheering me up todayyyy :)

Ok this shouldnt sound all emo-y and stuff!!!!!

To whoever's reading this piece of junk :

Today I feel darn proud,

Four months ago I surveyed my section on what award we think we'll get,

Got one answer : " 可以拿到 Silver 就已经不错了!"

HAHAHAHHAA four months later, we're actually going for gold.\YAY\

I think its simply unbelievable, how the band could just change so tremendously within four months!!!!

I love you chungcheng band! <3

(Y)

Aiya. Today is also our seconday 4 的最后一个 combine ler.

Sure will 舍不得 one what!

I mean we pulled through all these shit, all the changes in the band, i think we're like some wonderman or superwoman, sure will have feelings for the band one what!

HAHAHAHAHAH.

Now we no longer can join the band for combine already, cannot be the first one to open band room, cannot listen to Mr Ong talk about durians, cannot listen to Ms Sia quarrel with Mr Ong, HOW TO NOT 不舍得！

Actually ya. Cause no more band like suddenly very empty!

And also to my flute section, I'm darn proud of you all now!

We no longer lousiest section, can actually play something without getting scolded leh HAHAHAHAH

considering the fact that everytime we always tio 骂 by conductors, i think this year not bad leh!!!!!

Its like a mother watching the daughter (sorry xiaoxin) go for some graduation ceremony!

All of you improved alot HAHAHAHAHAHA :D

and sorry you all have to bear with this kind of crappy SL HAHAHAHAHA.

I mean which SL keeps on nagging their section mate?!?!

"你最好跟我找那个 Tuner hor！"

"你最好跟我玩 Intune 一点 hor!"

" YOU BETTER MAI ZAO HOR AND GO KEEP THE FILES."

"TOMORROW 845 GOT BAND. PONNING WITHOUT REASON AND I SHALL BURN YOU IN HELL."

"TOMORROW BAND, DONT BE LATE OR I'LL CASTRATE YOU."

"你这个 Flute 四千块给你随便撞坏"

" USE MORE AIR!!!!!"

"YOU DIAM DIAM LOL."

aiya come to think of it, I quite crap leh HAHAHAHAHAAHAHA like some grandmother >:(

but yessssss flute section! tomorrow we're going to make it, together with the rest of the band kay! <3

HAHAHAHAHAHA I LOVE FLUTE SECTION. WINNIEXIAOXINNICOLEDALLASCHENWEIEUNICESHERILYNFANGWEN!!!!!!!

总的来说，

Tomorrow is the big day for us band people!

We'll prove to people we're no longer a silver medallist band.

We'll OWNNNNNNNNN.

so rest well (HAHAHAHAH im supposed to be sleeping!)

and relax while playing tomorrow!

And watch Ms Sia tomorrow! Focus!

And also play from your heart,

as music can only be expressed in its most sincere form only when its played from the heart/.

Heh okay shall go sleep now. Goodnight people, we can make it. We will get what we want tomorrow. But it isnt the results that matter, its the process!

"One band, One Sound, Go For Gold!"

(We spend so much money and time so that we can acheive HAHAHA)

I LOVE FLUTESECTION, I LOVE CHUNGCHENGHIGHSCHOOLMAINBAND!!!! <3333

LETS SHOW TO PEOPLE WE'RE NO LONGER SILVER MEDALLIST BAND!!!!!

And lastly,(I like to eat durian.)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.,

P.s if you're tagged it means you're awesome.

(just kidding.)

my SL xinhao's wonderful note on facebook yesterday which i horribly missed. T_T

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Well, today was CCHMSB syf day. Yeap, the day we worked so hard for.

Before we even went on stage, I bet some of you could tell I was overly nervous and excited though I appeared to be smiling and laughing...LALA. evidence : bad tuning in tuning room. whoops~ BUT, well, when I walked up the stage, my heart was abnormally calm calm calm! When Miss Sia raised the baton, i thought : woah, the final 12 minutes starts now, shine winnie!~

Throughout the entire memories to vogelhandler part J, my mind was a complete blank. It was very clear in my head, my goal - GOLD, my music and my message. The rest, I needn't care. And my heart beated so ever crazily when every stroke Miss Sia waved. I followed Mrs Tan's advice and stare at Miss Sia throughout. I didn't even look at my score... o.o There were parts where I accidentally screwed but I just threw it all past me. I just wanted to have fun.

Somehow, I found myself smiling on the outside and the inside. I couldn't help it when Miss Sia looked at me and smile that smile I might never get to see again. It was friendly. *happy~ that I almost laughed out.

After the entire 12 minutes, like what KR said, I felt like i could do this all over again. It was fun. So fun. Nothing I've ever felt before!
SO HAPPY~

But, later g0t a little influence by people around me. They were sorta emo-ing, commenting on how lousy our band was and blah. I didn't really get it. I just felt so fun and excited, I never really cared and think to that extent of what we would get just yet.

It didn't really hit me till like erm, 2hours before the results.

The suspense at SCH was... URGH!! #*($%^#*(&$%^#(*$&% wait wait and wait. HAHA.

When they finally announced silver. I felt this sudden sense of whee~ Though I didn't really feel the YAY!!! but I just felt so satisfied. I couldn't understand why people were so super pissed off and sad though. HMM.

My opinion.

There is an obvious drop in individual skills between 2years ago and this year. It is actually quite impossible to catch up and fill the awesome gap with such limited time AND a change of conductor.
WE'VE GONE A LONG WAY, BAND. A VERY VERY DIFFICULT ONE TOO!

Moreover, if you realise, we never really had any gold band preparations. The number of band practices close to SYF compared to those gold bands was soooooooooo little. We didn't really reach the feeling part, only scraped it because we were still working on last minute blending and tuning. Somehow, for me, I couldn't expect a gold at all because I knew for gold, we have to work even harder and i guess, many people were just not prepared for that type of hardcore training. I was actually very very worried we couldn't maintain the silver. But after hearing that we got silver, to me, it was a wow considering so so so many factors. Seriously speaking, I thought we were quite close to COP in the beginning... But, as time went on, we did improve a whole load. :D

I LOVE MY BAND :D I LOVE MY FLUTE SECTION :D I LOVE THE ENTIRE PROCESS WE ALL WENT THROUGH TOGETHER! :D THANK YALL!

♥ CCHMSB. The legacy continues~ :D

(shall emo next post okay? =O)

My fingers will hurt but I still want to hold my flute...

2011-04-02T21:38:00.002+08:00

Holy knuckle berries!
SYF IS ON TUESDAY! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
All the hardwork for one day... After that day, everything will be gone...
I wonder how the results will be but I don't really think that matters that much anymore, at least to me. o_o
I'm just feeling so happy i went through this entire process, I'm thankful to Zhaoyan who was the one to pull me into band in sec 1 and I'm going to miss band after I step down. =<

I'll most definitely miss my flute... T_T I don't want to leave it. I totally cannot imagine a year without touching my flute.. Makes me sooooo jealous of xh and his flute... T_T!!

I'm excited for Tuesday nevertheless. :D
Excited for the food also... MUAHAHA.
I feel like I'm ready to go on that stage with my fellow band members and paly great music together under my conductor's baton. WE CAN DO THIS!
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I'M CURRENTLY MISSING MY PENGUIN. T_T
♥

It has to start from deep down in that empty heart of yours... Think... are you enjoying what you're doing?

2011-03-19T20:17:00.003+08:00

Post 200 dedicated to band~

Had the combine band thingy for the entire of today. SUPER SUPER tiring but, fun in a way ba.

Experienced a mixture of feelings again.

Heard the high quality of bands that were aiming for gold.

Actually, I feel that if we compare standard, we're currently struggling to get silver.

At a certain moment in the afternoon, I felt a total lost and hopelessness that I didn't think I'd get. I was that close to giving up.

Got to control my temper. Close to letting the monster within me out... I almost vent all the frustration onto a single person. sorry, though I know that person would never read this.

It was a sudden overwhelming anger that took control of me. Lucky i stopped myself from continuing... If not I guess I'd lashed everything out a poor person. HX said I was scary and sorta or rather shocked and scared her. o_o and I was thinking "woah, with my current stupid retarded hair cut can I even look scary?!" Damn, now I look like some idiot and totally no power. -.-''' what act also very difficult liao.

You know, SYF is like around 18 days away and we only have 6 goddamn practices. I cannot believe how slack everyone is... No rahrah at all... T_T

When the timing friday's prac was revealed to be 8-3, I heard a few 'wth's... fish them nia. BANDS ALL AROUND THE WORLD ARE STAYING EVERYDAY, GOING ALL OUT LIAO... We already so slack still unhappy with this and that. Damn the freaking culture of current generation students. this is already considered the tip of the ice berg, only little hardwork compared to other bands and complaining liao. WTH lar. So many fishing people come for band for the sake of coming and CCA points. Just by having these few blackies will pull down the entire band. Especially if you're playing an instrument where you're exposed, play with vigor ma. Look so sian and tired won't solve anything. Even if you hate the conductor and whatever crap, at least love the music, love what you're doing.

" Everytime I think that I'll be leaving my flute after SYF, it breaks my heart literally. I have totally no idea how I'd survive the days to O levels without my flute... T_T "

Next, sectionals. If you know you freakingly can't play that part liao yet you don't want come to practise. WHY?! Purposely want to embarrass yourself? It's so obvious to every band member when popcorn picks you out and makes you play individually. Yeah, I can't play that well at least I know my technical parts and I'm still trying to make my ugly sound nicer right? I BRING MY FLUTE HOME LEH.

If you want to complain about the weight, please go rape yourself. Walao, SYF coming liao leh. Can't you sacrifice that bit? It's just like when you have a test or examination coming, you will definitely study right? ANd then you'll have to sacrifice your television or computer time ma...

Yeah, my flute is light so I have no rights or whatsoever to force anyone else to bring their instruments home but considering the number of times I see my flute at home, I think it's fair if you bring it home and practise for the next 2weeks.

Back to the topic sentence. sectionals. Sectionals with other sections can prove to be purposeful. seriously. For example, Xh and I had sectionals with Zhaoyan and Huangxue. We now know what they play at different parts and even help them out. I'm sure we all learnt something new from that sectionals. Please lar, I beg you all lar, PRACTISE YOUR PART CAN? DONT SOUND LIKE POOPOO CAN?

I don't know about you guys but I really want to go all out for this band that changed me in a way or another. I want the future generations to all feel this positive change like me. So, I'm willing to go all out as long as anyone teach me how to.

If the leaders hold a one week camp all about band, i'll go.

If the leaders want us to stay till 9pm for band, I'll stay.

If the leaders want to use my Sundays, by all means take it.

Band is my life now. I swear.

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I can't stand people who complain about the issues that shouldn't even occur in their puny minds.

I didn't find anything wrong with the meal provided today.

It was free. There was rice. Chicken, hot dog and egg. What else more you want?! Abalone? Bird nests?

Stop freakingly complaining. damn.

It is edible and can't you just appreciate what the teachers have done to provide the food?

You have food. Some people in other countries don't. They die.

Sorry, maybe I'm just some retarded ah that like your so-called 'disgusting food' but this is just my opinion... -.-''' I'm just saying what goes through my brain. You read this so what? Are you blaming me for your reading of my blog [which apparently shouldn't be that easy to find]...?

Conclusion : you're some lucky fool who needs to be banished to hell if you do not find fault in your attitude. Change before you reach a stage where nothing will help you.

Know your music, Believe in your peers who are fighting along side plus your conductor who will bring you to BIG TREE (victory) and LOVE what you're doing and you fight for... I heart band. no joke.

It has to start from deep down in that empty heart of yours... Think... are you enjoying what you're doing?

2011-03-19T20:17:00.002+08:00